I was just re-reading an email I sent almost exactly a year ago - and thinking about the past year I feel simply exhausted. We have endured so much and lost so many.
But sitting here on my porch in the sunshine, I'm also in complete awe of the wonder of nature. The breathtaking beauty of blooming magnolias, forsythia, and cherry blossoms truly lighten my spirit.
It feels strange to look back and think that we really had no idea what what the year ahead would bring and how it would change our lives. But the truth is, we never really know what's going to happen next.
Gilda Radner offers us some words of wisdom:
Can we savor the ambiguity? Delight in not knowing what's going to happen next?
My immediate reaction, as a planner and do-er, is I DON'T WANT TO ANYMORE! But with a deep breath I realize it is the only way. To settle into the uncertainty, live in the present, and make the best of it.
So here I am, still experiencing it all. The heartache and devastation, beauty and sunshine. In the span of an hour I feel hopeful, enraged, confident, anxious, confused, and grateful. Every day I am grateful.
And if you're struggling with the uncertainty, I hear you. I'm with you. I have no idea when we'll practice yoga in-person together again, gather in Joan's living room for a motherhood circle, or have our first community play date in over a year.
But, a new yoga session starts this week! For now, we're on zoom. Living in the moment. Breathing together.
How are you managing the uncertainty of it all?
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