It's time for a shift. Seasonally we're barreling into summer (especially here in the DC area where highs are forecasted into the 90s for the next few days!) and personally I'm exploring ways to create more ease and space in my life.
I recently came across this post from writer Gloria Alamrew:
"My life will be a practice in joy."
Over the past few months I've been looking toward summer with excitement accompanied by a little bit of unease. After many hours of excel spreadsheets, conversations with friends, and moments of quiet reflection, I've decided that a shift in my work schedule is one way to move toward this different way of living.
The process hasn't been easy - battling with the cultural message that we should always be striving for more and making the decision to pause a yoga class I've been teaching for over 7 years have been just a couple of the challenges.
Each challenge brings the reminder: rest is a practice.
All emotions are welcome here.
Happiness for a day spent with (or without!) your children.
Heartbreak from the loss of your own mother.
Rage that the decision to become a mother is about to be taken away from millions of people with uteruses.
Gratitude for the people in your life who make you feel appreciated and valued.
Grief for the children that aren't here with us due to miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant death.
Delight in handmade cards and simple moments shared.
Exhaustion in the tantrums that always seem longer on "special" days.
Confusion at the dissonance between this day to celebrate motherhood and the other 364 days a year when we're completely unappreciated by our culture.
Anxiety about navigating this day and all of its conflicting emotions - some of which are deemed "ok" to have and others which are not.
What you are feeling today is valid.
You are not alone in feeling so much all at once.
Motherhood is messy, joyful, devastating.
We're here for all of it and we're celebrating you and all of your complexity today. Wishing you self-compassion as you navigate motherhood today and every day.
Thoughts on pregnancy, birth and motherhood.