Last week I had a moment. I was sitting on our living room couch and watching my kids race around the house screaming with joy. And this thought just popped into my head: "these are my KIDS! I am a mom! This is my LIFE! How is this possible?!"
I immediately thought of the Talking Heads song "Once in a lifetime." Specifically:
And you may ask yourself, well,
I mean, I know how I got here. My kids are 6 and 3.5. We've spent SO MUCH TIME together.
And sometimes it still takes my breath away.
A few days later, in our Motherhood Circle for Toddler Moms, similar "Wow, I'm a mom!" stories emerged:
* The moment I proudly realized I knew where all of the sidewalk ramps are and could navigate my morning walk with ease. *
* The time I noticed the 20-something women in a restaurant restroom who had clearly taken hours to get ready, and was completely content being there to help my 2-year-old use the potty and proud of myself for wearing something other than sweatpants. *
* The day I had to explain to a friend that a spontaneous coffee date is not always possible with a newborn baby. *
These moments can bring clarity, sadness, gratitude, loss, love, regret, and so many more emotions to the surface. Likely a whole bunch of feelings all at once. After all, much of motherhood is feeling two (or more) emotions at the same time.
One thing these moments all do is bring us firmly into the present. They show us what's right in front of us (usually our children), bring us into our bodies, and create the space to just be here for it all.
Have you had a "Wow, I really am a mom?!" moment? Please share in the comments!
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